Beauty is in the eye of the beholder

Today’s post is very personal for me, and I want to reach out and dedicate this to all of you beautiful ladies who are mommies that feel deprived, lost, broken, lonely, and just not happy with yourself. This is for those ladies who don’t feel comfortable in their own skin and are of larger size like myself.

I won’t lie having three children in the span of 4 years did a lot of damage to my body inside and out. I have always been a heavy set woman but never like I was after my three children came. I didn’t feel like myself and I felt ashamed of my body. I lost my confidance, I lost my self worth, I lost me, the biggest part of who I was all because I didn’t love the way I looked.

And, honestly I still struggle some days.

However, my dear husband tried his best to assure me daily that I was beautiful and enough and he loved every curve, every stretch mark and every inch of me. But I didn’t feel like it was enough.

One evening last year we were laying in bed looking at some photos on Facebook. This was shortly after taxes and I was actually looking for a photographer for my sister-in-laws bachelorette photoshoot. Well that’s where the Facebook photos came in, he suggested I did a boudoir photoshoot.

I automatically shut him down. He frowned, I could tell he wanted them not only for himself but for me too. So, I looked into it further. And, sat there looking at myself in the mirror.

I then desided I was going to do it. I wanted to give him something for Valentines day and I wanted something that would make me feel alive again and proud of my own skin.

So, I talked my sister-in-law into going with me and doing it for her soon to be hubby. I paid for the entire thing.

I went shopping at the Garden of Eden, we went to antique shops and other stores looking for outfits to wear. We each had 3 wardrobes to pick for the shoot.

Our amazing photographer Sarah Mckenzie gave me a great deal. She provided us with an amazing hair and make up artist and was very fun and calming to work with. We were both nervous as hell but by the end of our journey we were happy and proud of the leap we took together and excite for our hubbies to receive their “little black books”. 

For the first time in a long time I felt beautiful and proud to be in my own skin.
I want each of you ladies to take that leap and have a boudoir photoshoot. I believe every woman deserves to treat themselves to this exciting journey. You won’t understand the freedom and beauty I felt until you do it.

Here are a couple of my photos I am willing to share with all of you.

These are sample photos Sarah Sent from the photoshoot. She doesn’t actually put her logo through the photos.


If you live at the Lake of the Ozarks or surrounding area I want to refer you to sarah Mckenzie  Photography:

Or her website:

And be sure to tell her Ashlie Estrada sent you!

Thank you for joining me.

Please share and leave comments below.

~Gruada Mom~


Author: Gruada Creations

Hello We are the Gruada Sisters, we love to create new and exciting things. I (Gruada Mom) love taking pride in my new creations like a fairy garden I did with my daughter or a race track I built with my boys. I (Gruada Sister) love creating new things with them as well, I do not have children of my own so I spoil and create with my niece and nephew. We have two lives but one love... a love to create, learn and teach. The children are our inspiration to live happily and freely. Follow Gruada Creations on our new journey of creating fun and wild crafts, DIY Projects, toddler learning & daycare advice, interior and exterior design, Gardening, Fitness & Health and Travel. Never have fear of being different and standing out! Take it one day at a time and create art freely. Join our email list to receive monthly newsletters and all our most recent blog posts.

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